AHHHH!!!! Life is in crazy overdrive right now which is why I haven't posted in over a week. I feel so busy and so stressed right now that I don't even know where to begin or how to get everything done. This time of the year is probably my least favorite. I would much rather experience finals than the two weeks before Thanksgiving because for some reason every professor thinks that it is the best time of the entire year to give tests and papers and projects and at least during finals you just have to study. For instance I have three tests this week and a 10-page research paper due next Thursday along with all my research for the research study that I'm creating myself. Now this wouldn't seem so bad, but with the article I have to write for my own spreads for the yearbook, plus mailing out 72 pages and getting proofs corrected and mailed out along with the research I have to do for admissions and the fact that I have mad crazy errands like cleaning up my room which literally looks like a major disaster and friends that are graduating in a month and family things, life is just insane.
I know I can get it done. I know with a will there's a way. My father often quotes this little line from Dr. Teeth (from the muppets): "There ain't nothing to it, but to do it." I get that. I truly do, but I'm just exhausted and want to sleep for a week. Thanksgiving Break is much anticipated by me.
As great as it is to be involved by the things that I am, I have come to the realization lately that being busy can be one of the biggest hindrances of my life. Because I am so busy, I am sometimes too tired to even hang out with my friends, and when I do, I sometimes think about the million things that are circulating around in my head. I'm not being a good friend. But most importantly, my spiritual life is affected. I'm too tired and too numb to any emotion that I don't have the energy to pray or read my Bible. I know and desire to, but I just don't do it. It just kills me inside. I sometimes think that when I finally graduate I'm going to have all the time in the world to read my Bible and spend time with God, and it excites me so much. But I've realized that having a relationship takes time and is a conscious choice. To have this relationship I will honestly just have to set the time and do it. My relationship with God isn't just going to come into place when I have time, but I'm going to have to go it because God desires a relationship with me and wants it. If I'm not actively pursuing it, it kind of makes me think that I don't desire and love God which makes me sick to my stomach.
In my Bible class on Friday, my professor said something that really struck me and has stuck with me all weekend. He said, "I'm not a Christian because I go to a Christian university. I'm a Christian because I intentionally want to be." I sometimes think that it's ok that I don't have a more personal with God because I go to chapel everyday and church every Sunday and have a great Bible class three times a week. I get my "God time" then. But really, how into those times am I? Do I just go because I have to or do I go because I want to? I need to spend time with God more because the rewards of that relationship are going to be so much greater than the good grade I'm going to get in class.
Well, I think it's time for me to stop my late night ramblings. It's late, and I have an 8 a.m. class. I think I'm going to leave with the story of Mary and Martha found in Luke 10:38-42. I need to be like Mary more. "As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, 'Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!' 'Martha, Martha,' the Lord answered, 'you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.'"
I know I can get it done. I know with a will there's a way. My father often quotes this little line from Dr. Teeth (from the muppets): "There ain't nothing to it, but to do it." I get that. I truly do, but I'm just exhausted and want to sleep for a week. Thanksgiving Break is much anticipated by me.
As great as it is to be involved by the things that I am, I have come to the realization lately that being busy can be one of the biggest hindrances of my life. Because I am so busy, I am sometimes too tired to even hang out with my friends, and when I do, I sometimes think about the million things that are circulating around in my head. I'm not being a good friend. But most importantly, my spiritual life is affected. I'm too tired and too numb to any emotion that I don't have the energy to pray or read my Bible. I know and desire to, but I just don't do it. It just kills me inside. I sometimes think that when I finally graduate I'm going to have all the time in the world to read my Bible and spend time with God, and it excites me so much. But I've realized that having a relationship takes time and is a conscious choice. To have this relationship I will honestly just have to set the time and do it. My relationship with God isn't just going to come into place when I have time, but I'm going to have to go it because God desires a relationship with me and wants it. If I'm not actively pursuing it, it kind of makes me think that I don't desire and love God which makes me sick to my stomach.
In my Bible class on Friday, my professor said something that really struck me and has stuck with me all weekend. He said, "I'm not a Christian because I go to a Christian university. I'm a Christian because I intentionally want to be." I sometimes think that it's ok that I don't have a more personal with God because I go to chapel everyday and church every Sunday and have a great Bible class three times a week. I get my "God time" then. But really, how into those times am I? Do I just go because I have to or do I go because I want to? I need to spend time with God more because the rewards of that relationship are going to be so much greater than the good grade I'm going to get in class.
Well, I think it's time for me to stop my late night ramblings. It's late, and I have an 8 a.m. class. I think I'm going to leave with the story of Mary and Martha found in Luke 10:38-42. I need to be like Mary more. "As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, 'Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!' 'Martha, Martha,' the Lord answered, 'you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.'"
